In my project, personal life experiences and emotional feelings are the motivation for my shooting. I noticed some details in the dark room and some film. Most of them were thrown away because people flushed wrong. I think there is still some emotion and memory in these negatives, so I scanned and enlarged them. After scanning, I found that with the exception of most of the negatives that had completely disappeared, most of the negatives had residues-one part was black or white and the other part was visible. Those incomplete images are like people’s memories. Even if people try to remember the past, they still cannot recall all the full details. As time passed, they gradually faded into the only remaining mark.

Some of these discarded films will be part of my project. They will be combined with my portrait work to express the same theme together.

It was quite a challenge for me to go to a strange country alone. At first, my heart was full of anxiety. I am eager to reveal my loneliness to others. ” wander me lost” is based on my mood and memory at that time. The color of the whole work is dark and the color temperature is cold. I placed the model in an empty space and let her body curl up or hold on to certain objects (such as pillows) for a bit of security. Her eyes are empty or deliberately away from the camera, creating an atmosphere of loneliness and helplessness. Her eye makeup is heavily colored and meticulously painted, with blue eyeshadow and sequins sliding down her eyes to symbolize her tears. Her dress was a long nightgown with a sling, and her earrings were like transparent foam, indicating that she was going through a long, sad dream.

I used a combination of flash and low shutter speed, and immediately moved the camera as I shot to make the photo appear as a virtual and real overlapping image, which represented extreme anxiety. At the same time, I used LED modeling lights to adjust the light of the picture part to make the whole picture darker, and the light on the face was bright and warm. Emphasis is placed on the details of the eyes, accentuating the atmosphere of sadness and loneliness. I combined the remaining negatives of the same or similar colors with this set of works so that the two sets of pictures can better echo each other. Visually, overlapping portraits and incomplete images have blurred visual effects, symbolizing that memory fades with the passage of time, presenting an atmosphere of loss and loneliness.

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